
I am running out of photo black ink for my printer. This shortage translates to not having printed index cards to write on. So, I will be taking a break today again. I am hoping that my order will arrive soon.
107,594 is the estimated number of Iraqi civilians who died from violence since the US-led invasion, as of October 29th 2010 (Source: Iraq Body Count). To me, the number is so big that can only exist on computers. Using my body, I want to feel the magnitude of this number and the scale of the war destruction by writing the information of the victims on index cards. Since November 19th 2010, I have been writing the cards every day for an hour.
I have to admit that I'm not as into it as I thought I would be . Wait, did I talk about this already in my previous post.? Anyway, I am not sure if I'm too busy and my mind is too caught it with my work; I have no room in my brain and in my heart to think about the people who are so far away from me. I actually hope that it is the case. I do not want to think that I am heartless and numb. Am I? Maybe I need to invest more time into it in terms of doing research.
How much time should I give myself? I know I should not be doing it if I am not interested in it anymore. But I don't want to give up yet.
I think I need to read more on existentialism. That's my plan.