Hmmmmm...

I have to admit that I'm not as into it as I thought I would be . Wait, did I talk about this already in my previous post.? Anyway, I am not sure if I'm too busy and my mind is too caught it with my work; I have no room in my brain and in my heart to think about the people who are so far away from me. I actually hope that it is the case. I do not want to think that I am heartless and numb. Am I? Maybe I need to invest more time into it in terms of doing research.

How much time should I give myself? I know I should not be doing it if I am not interested in it anymore. But I don't want to give up yet.

I think I need to read more on existentialism. That's my plan.

An hour does not seem to be long enough

I'm thinking that an hour is not long enough for me to feel what I wanted to feel when I decided to do this project. An hour just goes by too fast. I want my hand to hurt. I want my body to feel the pain. So, I'm thinking maybe I should find a day when I'm less busy and just write the cards for as long as I can stand it. It will have to be sometime next year then.

Meaning of the Unknown -- Day 12

As I was writing the unknows last night, my thought of human existence finally came to me. We all will die in one way or the other. People die on this planet every second; there is nothing special about it. But with these people, we're responsible for their deaths. That's way this project is still important, maybe. Will follow up on this thought.

Too soon to quit? -- Day 11

So, as I was writing them, I was thinking that it's time for me to quit as I really don't know why I'm doing what I'm doing now. Or maybe I should talk a break? But, is it too soon to quit?

Okay, I want to hang on to this thought. I'm hoping that we I'll get more out of this project when I get less busy later. Or perhaps I need to do it in the morning instead of doing it at night when I'm exhausted.